A Hope of Introspection
My interests are in the broader structure of society and the more universal relationships within that structure. Through a myopic human lens, we may feel that we stumble upon interpersonal connections at random; however, the links connecting each person may actually be more clearly structured and organized than we imagine. Since we live in a world that is increasingly becoming more digitized, we are interconnected by necessity. Though we feel there is a great mass of sharing between one another, the reality is that if we look more deeply, we find we hardly know each other.
Historically, humans have strove to create structures through which to organize and control our lives, through the creation of calendars, maps, charts, laws, religion, and the like. We have become more and more accustomed to societal control, to the point of changing the way we think and act. We automatically accept the limits of the organization rather than beginning with a blank slate in which to create completely independent thoughts. I feel that this intensely conformed life within a web of inter-connectivity has caused us to become very calculating with our relationships, only pursuing connections that will strengthen or broaden our own. It is a selfish system that does not allow us to seek connections without concrete and immediate benefit to ourselves. Hence, people tend to find security and stability in a crowd rather than in small groups where the connectivity might not be as strong. Even though we seek this strong network, these interpersonal links are rapidly made but also easily erased in the digital world. Though it feels like we are deeply imbedded in a community of individuals, we only succeed in scratching the surface of most of these relationships.
In my work, the lines and colors play different roles: color functions as emotional washes that leak into each other, while the lines, drawn on top, control this fluidity. The repetitive horizontal and vertical lines show the continuous meetings and break-ups of crossing paths. Meticulous detail is paid to the smallest things within the larger system of the painting, creating intricate and delicate worlds within a larger expanse. Through creating these small and delicate but dense areas of each painting, I want the viewer to self-examine his own place within the larger societal system. The interplay between the lines and the colors encourages the viewer to examine his or her own relationships and explore such questions as:
What barriers or lines are drawn between ourselves and society? How do we hide our personal and emotional expressions from the domination of larger societal forces? Do we hide from each other on personal levels when we are hiding from these larger societal forces? Do we layer information of our emotional selves when we hide? What causes us to move boundaries and build additional layers, and what makes us reveal these layers?
From these questions I encourage myself, as an artist and as a human being, to provide a flow, a change to the viewer who seeks each other more deeply. Not simply getting closer and looking at the minuscule things, but also by taking a step back from society and attempting to see something more widely than ourselves. It is my hope that this introspection contributes to a greater understanding of our place in the world and our relations to one another.